me at 2010 pounds 
2011 somewhere between 210 and 220
me at 240 pounds.... MY WORST...never again
AND ME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This morning I weighed 161 pounds. I am officially battling between a size 10 and a size 8 (which FYI ... ITS AMAZING!!!!!! I LOVE IT!!!!! ) Summer in DR was the salvation of my nerves and, lets face it, TOO much fun!!!!
I did NOT want to come back... but reality hits sooner or later. Although, honestly, one more week wouldn't have hurt.
Its funny how i feel so different yet i feel the same!. At this stage, I can officially eat anything I want expect... I dont want to... or need to. My cousins and my little sister make fun of me because I'm OBSESSED with calories and sugars and protein and not eating this or that. Up until now, it's worked for me.
Despite all that, I still have these odd mood swings that every once in a while, more often than i'd like to admit, I feel bad and my self esteem plummets and I HATE IT because THAT IS NOT ME! I hate feeling as though I'm not enough. And for some odd reason that is exactly how I feel. I feel as if i'm not enough and i don't like it. All my life I have been more than enough in everything and now... it just feels really bad.
This thursday I have an appointment with my doctor to check my vitamins and levels and get a referral for the psychologist. Wish me luck :)
